Dear doctor, I am not depressed, I'm pissed

Investigated the medications my doctor suggested for treatment of my fibromyalgia. All three of Savella Lyrica and Cymbalta all three are for the treatment of depression or general anxiety. I am not depressed, not one bit. I'm pissed off, tired of not feeling well. Annoyed because no matter how many times I try to talk to my doctor about my joint pain, she wants to talk about anti depressants.

I hurt when I move, my joints hurt. I bruise easily, get mouth and nose ulcers. The last bone scan and X ray of my hips showed damage to the cartilage. Giving me an anti depression medication will not help me.

I don't see that I have much of a choice. I can either keep eating Tylenol and get little to no relief or, I can agree to take a series of anti depressants. Which, if memory serves, make me depressed.

Maybe if I agree to take one of these stupid meds I can go back to Dr Von Deck and see if she will pull open my hips and take a look at them. She has my knee working a lot better than it has in many a year. Ya I wish I had put my foot down a decade ago and demanded my knee be repaired. It's not normal to fall down a lot, or have your foot stick out at a funny angle. Good news is my knee has not given out once since the surgery.

Blood tests and Bed Times

Went to see my primary doctor today. She had been concerned about the raise in my blood pressure over the winter. I figured it was because I was so sick in December. My blood pressure is back down to normal.  YA for something good.

They took a couple of vials of blood. One to retest my ANA ANA and one to check my  SED rate.  Talked about all the problems I am having sleeping. She finally put me back on Ambian (well the new generic) at 10mg.  YA!!!!  I use to take 25 at night because it was the only thing that let me sleep through the body quakes and twitches. So it's a start. A small start, but still a start.

Both my rhumy and primary care doctor are still not giving me any body wide pain meds.  You know the ones that make you not feel pain like narcotics.  They increased my muscle relaxers, but me on a higher dose of Amitriptyline a anti depressive medication that has been shown to help in some cases of chronic pain and migraines.  Since I am having fewer migraines I can say it has helped there. But why am I taking 75 mg a day when the medical book says 10 to 15 mg a day are usually required for pain modification. 

I still feel like just a simple small narcotic pain med each day, even something as small at 20mg Oxy would go a long way to making me feel more human. Most of my pain is in my joints, not in my muscles.  

Just wondering if I could ask my readers who have fibromyalgia vs lupus. 



--Where does your pain come from? 

--Is it a more joint oriented pain, where joints in use, or carrying weight hurt?

--Or is it more muscles in use hurt, with the pain reducing when you stop using the muscle?

--Or is it just an all over shoot me now muscle joint and bone pain?

--How many of you have both lupus and fibromyalgia?